Correction Facility

This post is not for everyone but can be utilized by all in the form of wisdom. It’s important for you to take this back to the Lord and carry on the conversation with Him if you feel nudged to do so. Not every word is meant to be applied to your life in the immediate moment, sometimes it’s meant to be tucked away for the Holy Spirit to bring up at the appointed time. If you are receiving this in season it should not be the first time you are hearing about it. If the Lord has not been speaking to you about this already, take the wisdom and knowledge as a form of learning the ways of the Lord that you might choose to walk in them. If this is for you it should serve as confirmation and give you understanding. Glory be to God!

I understand what Jeremiah wept for. When I learned the Lord wanted me to use my gift for His Kingdom I thought I would get to write whenever I wanted and whatever I wanted just to relate to others or something surface level but I should have known that wouldn’t work. I was always a deeper soul. Someone who wasn’t afraid to be seen clearly. Shame has never been my portion. I’ve always lived out loud. Nothing I have ever shared has been because I didn’t learn it the hard way or at least experience the principle myself. This one, though. This one is harder for me to release because I remember what it felt like, the battle of the mind. I came out of it and I am free but it took seeing a lot of truth about myself that my body tried to reject it all together. God had been convicting me and I had misunderstood. Now, though, having been delivered and set free, I understand and I am grateful. The blood of Jesus truly does still work, but it can’t cover what you won’t confess. Buckle up, this is a tough one.

Some of you are misusing your convictions & instead of thanking God for loving you enough to correct and instruct you in your ignorance— you spend the time meant to reform you, complaining about the circumstances or pointing fingers at the people used to bring you awareness. Instead of sitting with self, in reflection for the purpose of repentance and refinement you find every way to justify your behavior and shift blame toward someone else. God uses judgments to help us see ourselves. It’s like being criminally convicted and going into what feels like a jail for a while. That season of being in “jail” is not a punishment but more of a consequential, Holy Spirit governed correction facility. If you spend that time with your focus on blame shifting and harboring anger for what happened to you or who played a part in it, you will miss the purpose — that is, to refine you so when you are released back into position you will be stronger, and less likely to repeat cycles that carry the same consequences.

A lot of women are in repeated cycles of breaking down because they’ve been letting their offenses and emotions lead them through their journey. Our emotions are meant to be processed and discerned but they should not lead us as we build. When we refuse to submit to the leading of the Holy Spirit we bypass learning how to tend our vineyards and operate authentically in the fruit of the spirit. Song of Solomon 1:6 reads, “Do not stare at me because I am dark, for the sun has gazed on me. My mother’s sons were angry with me; they made me take care of their vineyards . I have not taken care of my own vineyard.”

Each of us are responsible for keeping our minds and hearts submitted to Christ. The Young Woman of Jerusalem was telling the younger women in her court not to look too closely at her because although they looked to her in leadership, in the shadows there were underlying truths and if they looked closer they would see that she was not stable or mentally sound. This often shows up in women who experienced a childhood where they were forced to take care of everyone and hold all things together without having a safe place to process their own thoughts, emotions and be comforted in a way that honored God. They may have dealt with emotional outbursts in families so they were constantly maintaining responsibilities that weren’t theirs, therefore neglecting their own personal growth. When we experience childhood trauma, or neglect our self care mentally, spiritually or emotionally we teach ourselves on a neurological level to avoid dealing with our emotions and put a mask over them. There are mental altars we build to traumas and wounds that continue to resurface when we are triggered and if we don’t do the inner work and allow the Lord to remove what doesn’t belong we end up moving out of performance instead of authenticity.

These types of women usually feel safe creating an image of peace and allowing compromise to avoid being triggered all together. They would rather stay where it’s comfortable to prevent conflict by choosing to keep everyone entertained and happy instead of surrendering to the process and sanctification of the Holy Spirit to produce the fruit necessary to fuel lasting change and transformation. Like the Young Woman of Jerusalem, they love from their wounds rather than wholeness until they surrender to the deep healing which also requires a deep level of self observation and coming into agreement with truth. When we move into a space of self preservation while we are being CALLED into depth, we put up a defensive layer against the Lord and make ourselves our own worst enemies. We fight against what God is trying to do in our lives because we can’t perceive the NEW THING He is trying to birth in us or through us. I emphasize called because it’s important to know that being called can not be controlled. It’s at Gods discretion. You can’t fabricate it.

Eventually the cycle breaks and there’s another emotional outburst that causes conflict or is a response to it because we can’t operate under a mask forever. These moments are happening FOR you not to you. They are meant to be utilized to bring conviction and repentance that inspires surrender and brings you to the feet of Jesus to receive the grace, mercy, forgiveness and healing that He wants to pour out over you. Where women go wrong is looking through the lens of condemnation. They are not being condemned but condemn themselves in their thoughts because they do not understand the voice of God. They hear accusation when the Hoy Spirit lights up the shadows. Where the Lord wants to reveal and purify, a wounded or sick ear will hear accusation and get offended or jump to try to justify themselves. When you were raised to believe that you should hide in the shadows and not be seen fully, it gets uncomfortable and foreign to be seen naked before the Lord. This is where blameshifting to avoid accountability becomes a natural habit. Your mind automatically seeks to remove blame from self instead of accept truth and be set free by the blood of Jesus.

This is about to get very specific and I pray that you have ears to hear this with grace and know there is no condemnation in Christ. I’m honored to be iron that sharpens iron in this space. The Lord has given me a few specific examples and I need to be clear, it is going to take ears to hear in order to fully receive this. Some will feel the literal understanding but there is a deeper principle that is being revealed through these examples and if utilized wisely it will be purposed to convict, correct and grow you but if you are still wounded you might hear in offense, fault, or condemnation. If it is the latter, the Lord wants to heal your ears. His voice does not condemn. He loves us and wants to grow us.

The Lord showed me a dream of someone who was in a season of waiting and they were scrolling on their phone. They had mutually blocked someone they loved on social media for a period of time. When they caught wind of what this person was doing, instead of respecting the boundaries that were set, they chose to go on a fake profile and lurk. What they saw sent them into a distraught mess. The screen on their phone completely malfunctioned and they were no longer able to be on it at all. All of this was happening while they were supposed to be sitting in their own refinement period but the minute they had seen what that person had posted, they couldn’t see or hear clearly anymore. This dream was interpreted pretty literally although it was highlighted in the principle of being upset with what was seen but truthfully, boundaries were crossed in order to see it in the first place so it was a product of their own lack of respect for someone’s personal space. They should have been more upset with themself than the person. Only one of them had done something they knew they shouldn’t be doing.

Next, I dreamt of a new photographer that was supposed to be taking photos for a director. They were instructed to hold the camera steady and take a specific photo but they asked if instead they could create their own moving image from all of these different angles. They were being trained by a professional photographer who had been doing it for years and that trainer steadied their hand back to a still frame and said, “no, this is how we do it.” The new photographer scoffed at the one who was assigned to train him as if his instruction was not good and so the director came and said “okay fine, do it your way, then you will understand why they told you not to do it like that.” The Lord later revealed to me that this was about dream interpretation and submitting to the ones God has called in as an instructor or teacher to learn in the ways of the Lord without trying to cross ancient boundary lines. Some things are timeless and do not change with trends. He specifically highlighted ChatGPT interpretations to me, there is a neurological reason He does not approve of this as well. It prevents your mind from waiting on the Lord by conditioning you to rely on something that can not carry His spirit. That can be discussed in depth at a later date.

Finally, I had a dream about a woman who was upset that she had gotten a flat tire on her journey. Her tires were pink and for me, the color pink often represents emotions and feelings in dreams. The car had to be pulled over and she was trying to call out to the people ahead of her to help her but they were busy harvesting their fruit. She would have to wait to be helped because she chose to ride in a black car that had pink tires that weren’t suitable for the path she was on. The next morning I woke up and my tire pressure light was on. Right in front of me, on my dashboard, there were three areas that were letting me know clearly that I needed to go and air up my tire to see if there was a leak or if it was a seasonal issue due to weather change. It was just a weather problem, no need to replace the tire but thank God I went and tested it immediately. At that time the Lord began to give me revelation over the dream from the night before. The tire wasn’t flat because it blew, it had lost air because she had not taken action when she was given a warning nor did she discern the seasons. When we see the alerts pop up to prepare us for the journey ahead yet still move in the way we feel according to our emotions, we risk delay that was the fruit of our refusal to take instruction and heed a warning. This is a similar principle to the social media lurking. Can you discern how they parallel?

Each woman was frustrated, having a complete meltdown at her situation but each situation could have been avoided by respecting boundaries, heeding warnings or keeping up with proper maintenance for the seasons. Each of these situations were the consequences of their own actions. When we move in denial over our behavior, knowing that what we’re doing isn’t wise or has been advised as harmful to our growth, we risk experiencing complacency, delays or standstills in our journeys. Some even result in generational consequences. God is so gracious and merciful to go in and bring us back into a stable mindset by fixing the problems we caused ourselves when we exercised our free will to refuse to heed the warnings. We refuse obedience and submission at the time and then crash out when exactly what we were warned about happens. There has to be accountability. Full accountability. Why? Because unrepentant sin is an open door for tormenting spirits. Don’t hide like Adam and Eve in the garden after they were deceived.

God doesn’t give instruction because He expects us to be perfect. He’s trying to protect us through guidance because He knows we’re human. The first few times you do what you were warned not to do or disregard a warning sign there could be no effect because nothing came and caught you off guard but the minute you see or experience something that triggers your wound or exposes your disobedience, suddenly you’re a victim and the world is cruel and how could God let this happen?! He didn’t just let it happen, He gave you free will. Proverbs 5:11-14 says, “At the end of your life, you will lament when your physical body has been consumed, and you will say, How I hated discipline, and how my heart despised correction. I didn’t obey my teachers or listen closely to my instructors. I am on the verge of complete ruin before the entire community.” Shame. It always goes back to shame and humiliation. Through Christ this is not our portion. Keep reading.

Personally, just a few days ago, the Lord specifically spoke to me about how I spend my mornings. He showed me that I could continue to wake my daughter up and go right back to my bed, or I could wake her up, go downstairs, make her breakfast and do things to create a healthier environment not only for her but for myself. He showed me that I didn’t have to do more if I didn’t want to. That I could continue to go as I am and not risk my salvation or cause detrimental issues for myself but when I sat with what He was sharing I was understanding the depth in what He was revealing. My daughter is 13 and the Lord is giving me specific instructions now on how to care for her because in the decades to come as she grows into adulthood, the fruit of how I chose to surrender and adjust my life to being more than a bare minimum mom would eventually show up and I would have to face the consequences of my actions one day. Yes, she can get up every morning and do everything for herself to get ready for school, or we can do it together. Or she can have a reality where she never was forced to become prematurely self-reliant when she has a parent that can carry some weight so she will be more focused in school, excited to fellowship in household experiences and less likely to rebel. He wasn’t calling me a bad mom, He was teaching me. Sharpening me. Strengthening me. Giving me understanding now so I wouldn’t be asking for help to clean up a mess I made by the fruit of poor stewardship later. He was showing me how my morning routine would produce generational wealth by giving my daughter a childhood that would overflow into her as a mother as well. By creating memories for the Holy Spirit to use at a later date, she will have a framework that leaves room for growth and is rooted in the love of Christ. Sacrificial love, the kind that benefits others more than self. My ability to surrender and hear clearly without getting defensive or feeling accused helped me to be molded and grown in an intimate area of my life.

Are you still with me? I know this is dense. The heart of God is so complex and when He reveals it there is purpose. Keep your mind open— let’s go deeper. How does all of this tie in to being someone called to stand in faith for breakthrough in business, ministry, motherhood or marriage? Let’s start with Scripture. James 5:16-17, it reminds us “Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. Elijah was as human as we are, and yet when he prayed earnestly that no rain would fall, none fell three and a half years.”

I meant it when I said that we aren’t called to be perfect. Our humanness is considered by God but His instructions are being given to us to guard our hearts so our prayers won’t be hindered. When we begin to compromise it might not affect us immediately but eventually we will reap the harvest of our disobedience and we’d be foolish not to react with true repentance. A personal example, the Lord called me out of drinking. He didn’t say drinking was sinful and I would not be saved. He called me out of it and told me that it was wiser to stay sober. That was it. Later as I continued to stay at His feet, I began to see the fruit of that guidance through doors that would not have been opened to me had I still been actively drinking the way I was. The glasses of wine at lunch weren’t risking my salvation but they also weren’t beneficial for my future. I watched my daughters mind grow over the last few years of sobriety and alcohol not being present in our house or touching my lips has been a huge factor in the interests she has. He was also able to create an entire new, deeply rooted and living water stained Holy Spirit led school that has aided many women through their deliverance process and into the path of walking confidently in the anointing on their lives. He was giving me instruction and I trusted Him. He didn’t force me. He walked me through something that would produce generational wealth. He helped me create a safer environment for her and for the women I have been called to serve without condemning me in the process.

Let’s play out the scenario had I not heeded that warning or submitted to Gods wisdom. Alcohol in the house. 13 year old girl. I don’t need to create a false story I will tell you a real one. My dad was a CHP. He is a great guy. He didn’t drink often but he had an alcohol cupboard stocked up for the annual block parties and for the sake of not snitching on who exactly did it, I’ll just say there were 4 teenage girls living under one roof. Some of us would sneak in to it and replace the vodka with water just to try it out. That and every other bottle that was in there at least once. We’d put it in water bottles and go have sleepovers with people who had parents with less strict rules and sometimes it wasn’t a big deal, other times it was bad, every time it wasn’t right. That wasn’t his fault but I understand now why it would have been wiser for that cupboard not to exist. A lot of things could have been avoided. A lot of mindsets or temptations would never have even been there. He couldn’t control our actions but he had authority over the environment. I don’t think there’s a need to further explain all I’m saying is I understand differently now. Maybe he wasn’t convicted or warned about it so it wasn’t something to be concerned about but I was and it is my responsibility and that’s what it means to honor a conviction. To take action after you hear the warning. Your ability to take instruction and faithfully obey is going to be a factor in the legacy you leave. Our own ignorance leads us down foolish paths but our pride keeps us in cycles. Proverbs 10:17 says, “The one who follows instruction is on the path to life, but the one who rejects correction goes astray.” Proverbs 19:20 says, “Listen to counsel and receive instruction so that you may be wise later in life.” It’s always been about the long game. Do you hear what I am saying?

When we go against the counsel of the Holy Spirit we create open doors for things our obedience and submission were meant to protect not only us but those we are called to cover and arguably most important, our children from. Many people get angry at God like He wanted you to experience all of the terrible things but when we really sit with ourselves and see clearly, we were graced with the mercy to continue to move forward after our choices to stray. Proverbs 19:3 says, “A persons own foolishness leads him astray, yet his heart rages against the Lord.” I know this isn’t the lip service the world has conditioned you to expect from the mouth of a woman of God and I pray the gentleness of my spirit is felt through this screen because where there is conviction there is the love of Christ. If you are connecting in this, there is purpose in the correction facility. There is no shame or condemnation in Christ but there is a need for confession. Do you understand? We can’t keep making excuses for why bad things happen based on how we feel or trying to find someone or something to blame. We have much greater things to focus on and an unrepentant heart that can’t submit to truth is going to come out of that correction season repeating patterns that were meant to be brought to light and worked against. What is often done is people receive the conviction then blame whatever or whoever God used to bring it. For example if any of you reading this decide I am just mean and rude and you feel offended at what I’ve written, I’d say you are convicted but don’t know how to properly steward or discern conviction. It’s a battle of the mind really. It becomes self inflicted mental prison and the key is in allowing God to heal us so that we don’t run from it. Insanity is defined as doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. Repeating patterns. Cycles. Open up your ears, beloved.

I say all that to say this. Each of us are witnesses in this life and it is still true that one of the things God hates is a false witness. We are called to see clearly. We are accountable to testify honestly and if we choose to blame God or someone else for something we caused through our own lack of submission, we end up making ourselves enemies to the One that loves us the most. We end up standing on the wrong side of the fence because we chose not to come into agreement with truth. When the story you tell is aligned with a lie that fits the narrative you created, you partner with the enemy in a false reality that was fabricated by your wounds. I think each one of us get to a threshold in this earthly life where we either push through the hard truth with self actualization that leads to elevation or we cap out at the refusal to take accountability and end up falling into breaking spiritual laws that we try to trick ourselves into believing no longer exist.

I’m going to leave you with one last parable He gave me, It’s like this. Imagine you got an STD. You went to the doctor, received the diagnosis and chose to leave the office without picking up the prescription to heal the infection. Nobody would know but you would still carry it around and if you weren’t considerate of how it affected others, you would pass it around too. Technically, no one knows and you haven’t dealt with any real consequences but legally, you were responsible for picking up the prescription for not only yourself, but your partner and any other partners as well. You have the free will to just run away and never tell anyone, act like it never happened or even blame it on someone else. You can hide it for a good while but in time it could cause you a lifetime of damage physically and in intimate relationships. If you are the kind of person who would be more embarrassed to confess and seek resolution for something, you might hide truth to avoid judgment. It’s the same when we refuse to heal our spiritual wounds. They might not be the kind of disease you can see on the outside but you still carry them with you and when you refuse to heal them, the spirit you operate in when triggered and unregulated effects the other people closest to you. You can’t just go around spreading something you know you have without it eventually catching up to you. You can’t point the finger at everyone else forever. At some point, the wound wont be able to remain hidden. There has to be an ability to see clearly and make the choice that heals everyone, not hide to protect an image. Jesus WANTS you to be healed. He doesn’t call you the wound He gives you the prescription to heal it and go forward sanctified and whole.

I know this wasn’t short and sweet. Might not have been sweet at all but if you read this all the way through I want you to know, whoever you are, wherever you are: there is no condemnation in Christ. You don’t have to run from truth. You are not destined to carry around the weight or the shame. Here is a prayer that can be used as a guideline to give you language on what this looks like. Remember, you are a NEW creation in Christ.

Heavenly Father I thank You Lord for being a holy, loving and merciful God. Lord today I come to You in gratitude for the blood of Jesus that has washed away all my sin. God I thank You that it has washed me clean of all the times I knowingly or unknowingly disobeyed or caused harm to someone through lack of knowledge or wounded reactions. I ask that you knock down the walls of my pride and soften my heart toward truth. I thank You for healing my wounds Jehova Rapha my healer. I thank You for opening my eyes to the new paths You have for restoration and redemption in the Kingdom of Heaven. I plead the blood of Jesus over my old self and thank You for continuing to reveal my new identity in You. Forgive me for trespassing as I forgive those who trespass against me and reveal to me any unforgiveness that blocks me from receiving the grace You so freely give. Today I take accountability and trust You as You continue to reveal truth in ways that heal and grow me. Prepare my heart in ways that only you can. Give me a faithful and obedient heart to walk in the will of God and walk out the anointing in my life from a place of surrender. All glory and honor returned to You in the mighty name of Jesus I pray. Amen and Amen.